Welcome to my site about my time in Church of Scientology!
My name is Robert Dam. I am New OT V. I was born in 1964 in Denmark. I am married and have two daughters. I write this in English even though most people I know are Danish. What I am about to tell could have the interest of people from other countries and most of my Danish friends anyway speak English pretty well.
This is my story for good and bad with the Church of Scientology which I joined in 1984.
I would like to start with a comment of reading about Scientology on the net.
For non-Scientologists entertaining scandals and sci-fi stories are the first thing to capture the eye. Beware that this is not Scientology as a subject. This is all kind of informations which mainly originates as a result of all the conflicts following the Scientology organization. The Church of Scientology as it exist today does not anymore practice the original pure Scientology technology as developed by L Ron Hubbard. It practices an altered version. This can be verified simply by going into the bookstore in any Scientology Church and take a look at the books they sell. They are not anymore by L. Ron Hubbard, but by CSI (Church of Scientology International) or by CST (Church of Spiritual Technologies doing business as L. Ron Hubbard Library). When comparing the new editions to the originals, one will find several changes from the original writings of L Ron Hubbard, fatal and less fatal. This is also the case for the councelling procedures, training courses etc.
These alterations has caused many branches of the subject of Scientology. So while the internet can be entertaining, be aware that a lot of the materials you will find has little to do with the original writings of L Ron Hubbard.
For the Scientologist it is a different story. The internet contains advanced levels which you should not read until you are ready for it. I am not saying that you are doomed if you do or anything like that, but if you are following The Bridge as layed out by L. Ron Hubbard, you stand the best chance of winning by following it's correct sequence.
But the internet is also a way of speaking up for the people who has been abandoned. The Church has a practise of declaring SP (Suppressive Person) anybody who do not conform to Management and who has too many unpleasent questions and insist on answers. People who has been SP declared are not allowed to communicate to other Scientologists. Freedom of speach does not apply within the Church of Scientology to the SP declared person. Typically he does have a story to tell and feel very frustrated that he/she cannot. Somebody who has been a Scientologists for a while will usually have many friends inside the Scientology society and all of a sudden he cannot communicate to them anymore. He/she might be employed in a company owned by a Scientologist and all of a sudden find himself without a job. Deprived his basic Human Rights he seek other ways of communicating and find the internet as the answer.
Naturally this is not in the interest of the Church Management, and they have therefore introduced the idea that it is unethical for Scientologists to read about Scientology on the net. They also created a Net Nanny program which install secret blocks of a huge number of critical web sites. Anybody who installed the Net Nanny program was then unable to visit all those sites. Needles to say that Church Management is not at all keen about the internet.
Before I go on to my story about my own first hand experiences, I will give you a quotation from L Ron Hubbard about freedom of information:
"We have this enormous mass of people swelling up out of the ditches and byroads
and gutters and alleys and overwhelming a despotic government on the motto that "Everybody is going to be free. We're going
to have liberty, fraternity and equality" and we get despotity! Instead of setting up a new free regime, all they do is use the extant communication lines of despotism in order to rule and govern. Anyone who would recommend the overthrow of a nation by force is a fool. He doesn't understand the least semblance of politics or people. Because no nation is ever overthrown, they are just substituted for. If you want to know what
kind of government you'd get after you revolted against a government, look at the government you revolted against. Things will be a little bit bullet-nicked, but that'll be about the only difference.
We could, at this time, put together an organization or a group in Scientology sufficiently strong, sufficiently powerful to run over everything it came to. This would be a fascinating thing to do. Be a game in itself. And then someday-me gone, other guys gone-all of a sudden there sits this thing, this organization. And somebody has to rise up and say, "Auditors of the world, unite; overthrow this monster!" And everybody would see it go down very plainly, you see. Down it'd go. Then they'd say, "Fine! Now we are free." And they would get another handful of letters canceling their certificates. (audience laughter)
I try to look far enough in the future to forecast and predict what might be, so as to not do too many things wrong. You must allow me some percentage. And as I look into the future, I see that we are handling here, material of a potential control and command over mankind which must not be permitted at any time to become the monopoly or the tool of the few to the danger and disaster of the many......
And I believe that the freedom of the material which we know and understand is guaranteed only by a lightness of organization, a maximum of people, good training and good, reliable, sound relay of information. And if we can do these things, we will win. But if we can't do these things, sooner or later the information which we hold will become the property of an untrustworthy few. This I am sure, because it has always happened this way. But that's not reason it has to keep on happening this way. I am not of an inevitable frame of mind......
Scientology, well understood, is a very powerful thing. Poorly relayed, poorly communicated, monopolized or used exclusively for gain, it could be a very destructive thing."
- LRH. From the "Anatomy of the Spirit of Man" congress lectures. Tape 6, June 1955.
So, if you are a Scientologists and frightened about getting in trouble
with the Church because you read this story, you must realize that you have been intimidated. You might feel your spiritual freedom is at stake. Well, let me tell you one thing about that which is probably very real to you: You are not likely to become OT* if you are intimidated (1,0 = Fear on the Hubbard Tone Scale) or suppressed. And not allowing you to freely find information and examine it for your self is plain suppression, make no mistake about that.
* Operating Thetan; the Scientology term for a freed spiritual being who is not anymore dependant on the physical body.
All right, the brave ones are still reading - you will be rewarded with vital information - the less brave have left us by now. Fine! Hubbard once said that it is a rough universe and only the tigers will make it. And even they have a hard time. This is very true. More true than I first thought when I red it. The chapter "My first hand experiences with Top Management" will tell you why...
In the following chapters I sometimes include links to other web sites. These are sites created by others. They contain pertinent information, but I cannot vouch for the credability of all of them. You have to judge for your self - as always in life :o)